I chickened out, couldn't tell my therapist. After days of constant sui thoughts I just sat there and started laughing for the first few minutes. Like, for no reason. Couldn't stop. So yeah, no comment. It was okay though.
I will see how this goes, I'll tell him eventually. Somehow those words don't want to show themselves...I'm just hinting a lot, like "my employement will end at the end of the month and I have no plans, I don't want to do anything, everything is just black". Well, yeah, easier to say then "uhm, I'm having suicidal thoghts".