I don't really know what to say. My unhappiness has just increased over the years and I've recently thought about killing myself. I know, i might not have reasons like others might for ending my own life, but I'm just tired of living. I don't even know why I'm posting a thread on this website. I think a reason why I do want to do this is because I'm lost. I don't know what to do in the future, I can't imagine myself in the future. There is a lot of stuff happening in my life that I don't know why they happen. Over the past years, I stopped caring about school. The thing is, i go to a (what is called semi-private) school and my parents pay every year but I still don't put any effort in school. Why? I don't know. I get like 0-20% in my math exams because I don't listen in class and don't do any of my homework. I'm surprised I'm still at that school. Anyways, I think I just don't want to live to see the future and I think the only reason why I didn't kill myself yet is because I feel bad for my friends and my parents (I've recently started to think that it doesn't matter if my friends and family get hurt because I won't be alive to know about it).

I honestly don't know if what I wrote made sense, nor do I know why I posted this in the first place.