T - bad morning with wife, I want an email from you. I know I won't get one and I am sad about that. I don't think it was all a lie. I just think it is not in the cards for me. Maybe there is no other point than that. I want to quit therapy. I don't want to talk to you. Even when I am angry with you and part of me hates you (hates this), I still love you and crave your calm bubble. I still want to see you. Can we please not talk, cuz I don't want to cancel? And can I please have it back? -me