I can understand that you are scared! That is normal. He has been the one who has supported you for years. If I were you I would have allowed myself at least one "grieving-evening" and cried for the loss. After that may be your "THANK YOU" to this very good helper, should be to try to use all you have learned from him. He is still there in your memory! But to have a serious chronic disorder can be hard, so I would have started to see a new one, if I were you! Please remember that the new therapist is another person and probably will do things differently than the one you are used too. Please give him the time he need to get to know you. Be strong! He will never be the same as the one you are loosing now, but perhaps you can learn something new from him ...

You will make it!