I have lived with depression for at least 28 years. I have been told it's at least partly down to my personality.
I don't like it, but some days I deal with it better than others. I did have a good period for a few years where depression was less and I was able to have a reasonable quality of life and find things to be happy about and grateful for.
I hope you get at least as well as that!!
Living with depression is HARD but needn't always be as hard it is today.

Best of luck and good wishes.