My parents live in another country and after marriage ,I came to u.s with my husband and am working here.

The issue is I feel intense guilt about being here. I regularly go every year to visit my parents and spend about a month or so with them. Still I feel like I'm doing something wrong. My mother can be very manipulative and sharp of tongue that sometimes it is hard to even spend that much time with her. My dad is a sweet person and he is the reason I visit them so regularly.

I prefer working in u.s over there because of the benefits here. I can't pinpoint why I'm not at peace with myself being here. My marriage has its ups and downs. My job is o.k though with my qualification,I should really try for a higher position but I don't seem to have the motivation. The subject area in which I work is not my forte though I have advanced degrees in them and it seems to be a hot job market.

I am giving out all the details because I'm on the verge of wanting to do a major overhaul of my life and understanding what is causing this would move me in the right direction. Is it missing home, no job satisfaction or mediocre marriage that makes me so not at peace being here?? How do I find out??