Oh, yeah, and I can never have a community IRL where I'll feel connected to others, that will never happen in this life. I wanted things which can never happen and now I'm angry. But I know many have the same issues, so yeah...Sad

I'm always telling myself stories about the future but that future (or another dimension or whatever) will NEVER happen. I know, I should be living in the moment and such. I have been, maybe this was it. Maybe this is the moment of realisation. I don't know.

And then again I'll be left alone with my thoughts as always have been because this is how it is. I have enough thoughts to live in them, it's not real anymore but has it ever been?