I'm afraid that I'll finally commit suicide one day. The thought and want has become so normal for me. I want to die...yet I don't because of my mom and brothers. But I can't live for them forever. I really want to get help. I need it but I'm so scared to talk to my college counselor about it because I don't want to get locked up. The thing is I've struggled with suicidal ideation almost every month since I was 13 (I'm 20 now), so it's not like I'm in immediate danger. But I feel like the school counselor won't see it that way and will try to lock me up. This is why I don't think I'll ever get help for it, thus, me finally going through with the act What do I do?