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Old Apr 11, 2017, 08:08 PM
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Originally Posted by LonesomeTonight View Post
So, for those of you who are bipolar I or II, how would you define a mixed state? Because I'm possibly bipolar II (per p-doc), and the past few days I've felt a mix of depression and intense irritability (after a period of just irritability/racing thoughts, which I think is hypomania). It's like I want to either cry (did lots of that in MC session and after yesterday) or snap at someone (H, daughter, other drivers), and it feels like it's taking more and more effort to manage those urges (done plenty of snapping, too). Plus some self-loathing and guilt thrown in there for good measure.

Maybe I need to contact my p-doc? Been on Zoloft, and she had me try a really low-dose of Abilify (like half of the smallest pill--so taking 1 mg) for a bit (while staying on Zoloft), but that left me feeling extremely irritable all the time and unable to control stuff I was saying, which was causing lots of marital stress. So I stopped that a couple weeks ago.

I know this probably belongs in the bipolar section, but just wondering if anyone here had experienced similar symptoms... Naturally, my T is on vacation this week. (E-mailed MC last night but e-mail was about a bunch of stuff, with mention of feeling bad about myself and sort of hopeless toward the end, but may have gotten lost in all the other ramblings.)
My pdoc doesn't think I am bipolar (I have been seeing him for about 6 years, and I generally trust his opinion at this point), but I do have a great degree of irritability that my Ts have associated as being a symptom of my depression. Also I sometimes have racing thoughts (or thoughts that seem like they may be racing thoughts?) when I am incredibly anxious or overwhelmed. So for me it's all a combination of anxiety & depression. Oh, and also OCD.
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