To give you some background I was sexually & more abused growing up by my mom. I married an abuser. I'm in therapy dealing with it all. I'm in recovery for drug abuse. I've been clean for 2 years.

I took on a service job at my N/A meeting. I was given a key to open the church and start the coffee and get the meeting room ready. I would be meeting a guy at the church that I knew real well and trusted. I was not having any bad feelings about it or anything.

The first night I was supposed to do this I was getting ready to go all of a sudden I started crying uncontrollably. I didn't know why.
The more I cried the more I was getting madder at myself for crying. I just put my makeup on and I was crying it all off. I was starting to feel scared. I still wasn't sure why. I went to the meeting and couldn't stop crying all the way there. I tried talking to myself that everything was ok.

When I got there the door was open so I knew the other person was there and as I went down the steps he was in the kitchen getting the coffee pots ready and it all came back. When I was 16, I worked in a small diner and I opened the diner with a cook in the morning and he raped me. I had totally forgotten about that. I never told anyone.

Does this sound strange?