i'm scared to go back to you, that you will harm me, even though you surprised me in the past being nice when I expected you to be angry. But giving my session away makes me think you do really hate me. Would you have done that with a client who you enjoyed being with? I doubt it. Scared and needing you at the same time is really dysregulating. If are kind to me and understanding, i think it could be helpful in our relationship.

Now I keep feeling like you are going to be that mechanical lion in my dream that was chasing me, with the deafening roar the made the world shake. My sister saved me and pulled me on the roof, but it had power and jumped high and reached the roof-then i woke up. sort of fuzzy with the ending. But it's hard when I have that pit in my belly that you are going to be the monsterous lion.