ok ... sorry did not mean to get off the wrong foot ... so am I to understand that the issue is that you feel the masturbation is (an addiction for you ... or at least a unacceptable coping method) ... maybe something you do not want to become an addiction ... or are you more concerened with the (fantasy) used to provoke the masturbation ... or maybe the chemical changes released and there mental effect ... sex addition could become an issue (a crutch) ... masturbation I guess would fall under that as well ...

have you ever had any insight into why or when this "overanalysing" began ... that must be a real burden to have to carry ...

hopefully I am a little closer this time ... and maybe someone a whole lot wiser than me will respond with helpful info ... but I am here if you want to talk futher ... or pm if you like ...

ps: I though I had read your post carefully but I guess I did not ... I suppose I just assumed too much ... I really am sorry to have added to your stress ... I deal with stress myself and would never willing do that to another ... and no I do not think you are rude ... but it is plain you are under a lot of stress .... wishing you peace also ... Tigger.