Thank you everyone for the wonderful hugs. I feel so totally borderline. But it is nice too because the situation is so clear and defined. Something that can be worked on rather then the vague uncomfortable feelings that I can't associate with anything at the time. I wrote a note to my T about these feelings while I was in the middle of the feelings so she will get a clear understanding of where I am at when that happens. I see her in a little less then 2 weeks so it won't be to long. I think it will be ok. I just have to learn how to...what? Sigh. I don't know where to go from here but my T will. And I wrote my hubby a note about it too. He gets frustrated with me sometimes because I will cut even when things are going good. I think this will help him understand a little more about why things that are good may be bad for me at the same time. It will be ok. On the happy side, I have been dealing with this axiety and have not self injured. Instead I have been doing other coping things. Too much ice cream but only for a day. I have switched to satsuma oranges.
Carrie