I get angry, sad, and disgusted at myself when I feel like our session was unproductive. I get a bit of that towards my therapist too. Knowing that he's on my team and getting his assistance on the problems during the previous week is something that gives me strength to get through the following week. His stability is part of what helps me be stable. When I don't get that reconnection with him, even if I didn't know how to do any better, it bothers me.