Iam in such a state...my anxiety is working overtime tonight...my nerves are almost shot to hell and i have no where to turn...Ive done this to myself...I always do it to myself...the best thing I could do is run away and end this maddnes...I cant handle where i'm at...I cant do what Im doing...too many people depending on a loser like me...I jsut cant do it...Im not strong enough to do anything...there is no elaboration for this post just a general ready to fall apart type thing...