Very much alone and like I am not understood by people around me and never will be no matter how much I explain. I feel like I am perceived as whiny and weak when I do speak on how I feel and like I am perceived as too quiet and closed off when I do not. I feel like I can't win. I feel like I am a loser. I feel like everyone should probably just give up on me and perhaps a part of me wants them to so that their lives may be easier. I don't want to go through everything alone with no care or support around me either, though. I feel like the way I feel is not the way I should feel because I have been made to feel wrong for feeling the way I have felt for so long.

Sorry if this response sounds confused/annoying, but perhaps this is a major reason why no one really wants to hear about my true feelings...because of how confused and annoying I always sound? I think it's safe to say it makes life easier for others if I say nothing or just lie. Then no one has to deal with the burden of trying to care.

Really appreciate you asking, though. Thank you.