i'm just now realizing stuff that's been staring me in the face for years.. i make up my own world to live in and i'm starting to be terrified of things that used to be no big deal, becoming scared of everything and everyone and SO angry at EVERYTHING and EVERYONE!! i'm starting to retreat into my own inner world more and more. it's like this world is way too hard and there's no place in it for me....like all my life i've just been going through motions and saying correct little mechanical phrases but really only living inside myself what is this?! i've only been diagnosed with major depression, many years ago.