Dear MC,
I never should have included the part about how I feel safe with you in that e-mail two nights ago. Of course, now, I'm not going to hear back from you. I can tell myself that maybe you're doing something for spring break with your kids or that you're just waiting till you have time to respond. But my mind is like, "Great, now I admitted I felt safe with someone. Time for them to back away slowly..." I know I'm asking too much of you. That's what happens when I really trust someone.

I just want you to help me. Because you seem to truly understand what's going on with me. So to me, that puts you in a place where you can help. But I know you're fettered to some extent by the boundaries of marriage counseling. It's just hard to have someone who seems to have the potential to help me so much within reach, but only be able to partially benefit from that help. It's like we get close but then have to back off to deal with marriage stuff.

But if we could address the core of what's going on with me, then I think improvements to the marriage would follow... It often feels like we're just treating the symptoms. Like you acknowledge the underlying cause, but then we can't really work to treat it, aside from talking about it for a few minutes every few weeks. But if we could do that...if we could really spend time to focus on it--I think so much other stuff would fall away.

Please help me?
LT