Hello everyone,

I am new here. I haven't been fully diagnosed yet, because I am somewhat treatment resistant. I maybe have borderline, schizo-affective, or even schizophrenia.

I have this very annoying thing in my life that I keep struggling with... I wonder if anyone else knows what it is, and if it's part of some mental illness..

It is like this:

Sometimes I start something. Say, a website. Have an idea. I buy everything, create everything. A week or month later, I trash it and cancel everything. I throw away the site and begin something new. Then I decide I should start a Youtube channel. I create one, but a month later I delete everything. Then I decide to write songs. I write 20 songs, but then I delete them all from my PC and choose another genre. This goes one for a year, and I have gone through at least 7 different genres. Then I decide to cancel my Internet subscription. A month later I regret it, and I buy a new one. One year later I want to cancel it yet again... than I decide to start a business, write a plan and cancel it two months later to start another business. etc etc. this goes on and on and on...

I don't know why I am doing this? I don't want too, but... it just happens. It is so frustrating!

Is this typical of some kind of mental illness?