I made a sooner appointment with my pdoc. The soonest she had was May 1, but I'll just try to push through until then. She is good about being available if I need to call her though, so at least that's a safety net, in a way. I'm seeing the patterns in myself: angry-hypo, elated-hypo, determined-hypo, and just generally anxious impulsive in general. As much as I'm glad some of the depression lifted, I'm still struggling with decision making and impulsive buys right now. If only some self-awareness can actually help me make changes, but it rarely works out that way for some reason.