Oh Hey T.

So S came over last night to give me back my skates...and she somehow got me to go to prax at the park. I didn't bring gear, and helped B for her first time skating after surgery. EXCEPT, when I left, I hugged S and said I appreciated that she came over even if I don't seem like it. She said she was glad I said that bc she was worried I hated her bc she "forced" me to go.

Sooooo...that made me feel bad, and then I texted her ridiculous vulnerable things that I KNOW BETTER, to which she didn't respond to. She just said she was glad I came. So tonight, after a few drinks, I texted her I was sorry that I spewed all that at her, and she responded with she is glad to hear from me, but doesn't know how to respond.

Whatever. I hate myself for trying. Again. WHY. I am such an idiot. Will I tell you this next week? Not sure. (probably)