I think I'm scared because I've seen myself wind up in serious trouble because of something as minor as the itty bitty dose of hormone from a Mirena IUD. My body doesn't always take well to things that should be harmless.

But I'll try it, as my pdoc is thinking I may need a sleep study done if things don't improve since I'm on so much sedation at night and still don't fall asleep (my clozaril alone should knock me out nicely). And I don't want to have a sleep study. I had one before and it was expensive and frustrating.

But first I"m going to wait until my mom is healed up a little more. She's fine but has a huge incision that needs bandage changes, sometimes as a surprise. I don't want to have a new thing in my blood and have a 2 AM call for help (I live next door to her).

I just have to get over it. Honestly I was less afraid of Clozaril, a drug that can kill you, than this stuff. No clue why. I'm hoping it's irrational and not intuition. We'll see, probably tomorrow.