(((((((((((((thanks everyone))))))))))))))
yes- i'm an adult - on most days I agree with you sister about thinking "one of us has to know what's going on - and it's not me!!" I think i hate that question the most - and all it's forms; what do you need? how can i help you? Man, i have no idea - you're the professional.

Working on breathing and being calm about this. Believing it really is in my best interest and that i am safe. kiya