I always feel so alone… And I feel like there's nothing I can do to change this. When I trust people they tend to let me down. I feel like there is no point in me living either.

It doesn't take much to make me happy, but I'm hardly ever happy, because when something little happens especially from someone I thought I trusted… my emotions come crumbling down again. I feel so vulnerable then… but if someone who I never really trusted and don't know does something hurtful, it doesn't phase me. So why do I let those other people get to me?! I wish it wouldn't…

I also get like this often. I get really really low… then I may get high again. Could this be a sign of a mental disorder? Or am I just a freak…

Sorry for this rant guys I don't express my feelings much, especially in real life. But I feel like I'm watching my life pass by, why I wait for something to change… I want things to change but I don't now how. I truely believe that I am worthless… that I mean nothing to my family and people in my life.