thanks for letting us know what your diagnosis's from years ago are. I am sorry that what you feel you need to do in therapy is something your treatment provider is unable to do with you due to time constraints that the therapist is on.

this might help understand a bit of that... a few years back (2013) the USA transferred over to a new mental health system complete with new diagnostics, testing, and rules/ ethics, what can and cat be done during therapy. the down side of this is that sometimes treatment providers can't do some things that they have done in the past due to takes too long, that treatment approach is for long term treatment now, and other reasons out of the treatment providers and clients control.

heres a suggestion... take time to think about what you want to do, then break it down into more manageable steps. Example (using a non therapy related situation to show you what I mean) rather than talking about and learning how to sew a quilt, talk about and learn about threading the needle.

take what ever you want to do in therapy and pick one thing out of the whole thing you want to do. it may take longer to do what you want to do this way but at least the treatment provider will be able to work on that one aspect of what you want to do. then when that one thing is completed and if there is time pick another part of what you want to do... my point make your goals in therapy fit what you want to do but at the same time they fit what your treatment providers limitations are. in the end it gets done just not all at once.