I think I'm really scared right now because I'm falling deeper in love with my (new-ish) boyfriend (we've been together for almost a year) and that sets me up to be very vulnerable and emotionally dependent, like I was with my ex.

I had so much anxiety over my ex dying (or something happening to him that would result in me never seeing him again) because I was SO INSANELY attached to him.

I'm terrified of this happening with my current boyfriend when he starts working and we are apart for longer periods of time. I've already had a few panic attacks over him, here and there.

When I feel so strongly for someone...they end up becoming my lifeline, and I wish so much that I could feel security within myself so that this person does not literally mean life or death to me.