I was reminded again today that not many people in the world out there want to connect with me. Or if they do, it's on a superficial level and strictly on their terms.

I try to be kind, polite, respectful.. I try not to appear "clingy" and I succeed for the most part (there are few I trust enough for them to know me at all, even if they think they do

I was reminded again how alone I was when growing up.

My heart still aches. My pain is real and even when I seem to be ok / "normal" I'm bleeding inside.

I don't think they care.. maybe they can't care about anyone who isn't them.. or who isn't similar to them..