I definitely get very reactive when close to a person.
When I'm not close to a person, I'm quite calm and collected. I don't express my anger much (if at all, really), or negativity.
Those who ARE close to me know that I can become the very opposite of calm. I get angry and irritable over nothing. I say very impulsive things that I wouldn't dare say to someone I'm not close to.
I'm doing my best to work on it. It greatly fuels my self-hatred.
The last thing I want to do is get angry/have outbursts around or at those I love, but it seems that being close to a person simultaneously brings out the best and worst of me.
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Dx: BPD, OCD, GAD, and PTSD traits
Rx: Lamictal 200mg and 0.5mg Ativan as needed
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