I'm visiting my parents right now (after many months) and I've realised/ remembered that I cannot be emotional with them. I autmatically become this poker face, calm/ collected person and cannot let anything get out. It's a torture and no idea why it's like this...and I've really been trying to understand it..
Usually after a few days here at one point an angry/ emotional outbust is expected though...as usual. But only with my mother, with my father I guess I'm programmed to avoid this since adolescence...