Hello there, when I first started having bp 1 symptoms they kinda hit me all at once. I had an episode at work...I had no clue what was happening to me. I literally had a meltdown in my work office. I was placed on FMLA and it took going to a second doc before I was correctly diagnosed. My job decided to let me go. I had to move out of state with family. It was hell. I felt so useless and I was still trying to adjust to this new life. I was hospitalized a few times. Now I'm living on my own with my middle school daughter and things are ok....just got medical bills. I know things are really hard when your living with someone and it's not the same as being on your own. I get disability now so I really have to budget. Plus Medicare is not perfect and I can't get Medicaid. But it now feels good to come to my own place. You hang in there and keep ya head up.