Thank you all for your replies.

There are many things here.. I'm definitely experiencing a lot of anxiety lately, one of the reasons I'm there.
What I noticed with T, that since I've started going there I started becoming more self-destructive...I think I needed him to acknoledge the pain I'm in and also to feel that he cares. I'm aware how chldish that sounds..And maybe it's true that there is some parent-child dynamic going on there, me trying to get some feelings out of him, and I'm obviously not getting them. That's definitely the case...but I think I might be not so consciously trying to push his boundaries...I know I have this tendency.
Lately I noticed I'm extremely sensitive to "cold" reactions from people. Like, please, react in some way but don't stay cold. It's painful. I might have the same issue with him.

I know that lately I feel this huge thirst for emotional support/ connection...Maybe I have different expectations from him than he is willing to offer. Just that thought is scaring me. Maybe he'd decided that the suppotive type of therapy wouldn't be helpful for me or maybe it's his own style.
I would need more emotional support from him but this is something I would not ask in any case because the answer might make me cry on the spot.

I can't say it hasn't been helpful going there. I just feel a bit lost, because I don't understand how will I ever get out of this mental state I'm in, where I cannot even work, think clearly. Maybe I could tell him about this. I need some clarity, some stability, not just going there and let's see what happens, if I've been suicidal, that's okay, if I've been sad that's okay. Again, my issue with "I need another reaction from him".

I am confused as hell lately and my therapy reflects that

I don't understand exactly what's going on. Maybe I feel therapy is too superficial, but maybe I am doing all that.

Sorry, my brain is a bit foggy today, maybe not making much sense.