I'm not sure if I would call it transference actually.
Something inside me clicked when I saw him walking through the practice, BEFORE he called my name and I realised I had a male. I was expecting a female.
I think it was just attraction. I'm not attracted to many people, and when I am, I act weird. And it's harder for me to open up. But easier. Because if I really don't like someone, I really won't tell them anything. It's just something I've noticed about myself after 24 years of going to the same medical centre. I have one regular GP who does all my mental health stuff and my kids. I've seen anyone else in the practice when it's just been something minor or for the kids being sick or whatever. And I've noticed my reactions to different people.
So that intense attraction to T was a double-edged sword that I learnt to use to my advantage. Except in the end, I've got to pick up the pieces.