Dear T,

My plan didn't work, I don't think. This person didn't respond as we had both hoped. I am not sure what that means. I think I have realised what I need from a relationship, if it is to be meaningful to me, if I am to be invested in it. It is something I did not have in any of my relationships with anyone and I am not sure that it is even possible outside of our relationship. I need to be able to be completely honest and open, and I need that other person to be the same with me. Why is that something that seems impossible? Because other people aren't normally this way? I don't know. I just know that it is what I value most about me and you. I can literally say anything to you and it will be OK. I wish that was true in other relationships. Maybe it is, but it doesn't feel like it to me, because I don't feel safe enough in them.