Thanks all for your replies. So far I've began with a little work. Yesterday my husband got lazy on me and decided to get some quick McDonalds instead of cooking dinner or the kids while I was in class. He had worked all day. Anyway, he offered me some and I went ahead and said "no thanks". He obviously was shocked by this and went ahead and ordered some extra dollar menu sandwiches...just in case I change my mind I suppose. Well, I never did eat them, he did. Me turning down some beloved Micky D's was a good step for me, shows I had control over my hunger and the situation.

My biggest problem though is night binging. I'll not a thing all day then at night I'll be starved and eat like a cow. Then I'll sleep on that a few hours later. I think this behavior itself has contributed to me not being able to lose the weight, not necessarily gain it.

I fear if I quit smoking I will gain weight...so, would quit smoking, fitness, and dieting (complete health makeover basically) seem reasonable for a busy girl like myself?

My goal is a whopping 50 pounds...back to my pre pregnancy weight. I'm 190 now and hope to be 140. I think it's reasonable, naturally I'm stalkie and tall. Everybody says I don't look 190 at all, but then again I'm the one carrying the 190 around and I can tell.

I have a pair of short shorts I used to wear back in the day day, best shorts I ever had, they make my booty look cute..haha, anyway...there my inspiration.

I'm hoping changing my health behaviors now will influence my children to make good choices when they are adults too.

I know walking is the key to losing weight...really, the answer. My fear about that is walking the neighborhood by myself. I can't afford any equipment right now, nor do I have an inch of space to donate to it either. It won't stop me from doing it the old fashion way though. I'm going to start asking people around my complex if they ever want to go for walks with me. Maybe someone out there is willing.

Thanks for the advice.