I could have written your post myself. I too struggle with maternal transference and find her breaks very hard despite the fact the adult part of me understands that they are necessary well deserved ones. I had a session last night and now will wait a fortnight before I see her again. How do you cope when yours is away? I find it's harder at the beginning and nearer with the end I get used to it a bit better and the feelings decrease. What about you?