35yrs = 42 jobs with 25 employers

Yep, I understand. I am going to take a leap and say that you have been very good at these jobs but, it is the anxiety raised by continuing to do so which is causing you to self-sabotage your career. I am guessing, as I, that you have never been asked to leave an employment situation; rather, you have always left of your own accord.

I understand the cycle. I understand the panic, anxiety, and inability to sleep. I understand the failure to be set up for success. I understand the overpowering need to escape and run. I agree, it is embarrassing . At the very least it presents a problem preparing a resume. There are ways around that.

What to say? Be honest. Don't put yourself down. Company XYZ wasn't what they said they would be. They lacked the resources. They failed to set me up for success.