I subscribed to this thread because I've been plagued with not wanting to continue living for a couple months not, not constantly feeling that way but enough to really worry my therapist and psychiatrist. It's fun seeing all your different answers.

I wanted to post something for those who are in a similar situation to me.

People keep telling me reasons to keep living like the ones people have posted in this thread: living for the happiness of people I love, living for hobbies I enjoy, living because I'm so blessed, living to not hurt other people like so my son won't be traumatized by losing a parent, living because I have a lot to offer the world (their words).

None of those feel motivating for me. I just don't care.

I told my therapist that for me right now that list is B.S.
Him: I have two other people also saying that those reasons aren’t enough. What about this? Nope. How about this? Not enough.
Me: yeah! Exactly [how I feel]! What do you do?
Him: well then we have to start on a whole different level.
Me: what level?
Him: we have to start with meds, get them to where they can be invested enough to want to care.

I'm trying a new med right now.

I made a list of things that bring me joy no matter where I am chemically: going up in weights at the gym, reading a good book, rain and thunderstorms, Star Trek, my hair and eyes, and others. To me they don't justify the enormity of living, but I'm trying to do them more.