Totally relate! It saddens me when I think that I'm just "a client" to my T. Although I would love her to think of me the same amount of time as I think about her but I know she doesn't & it hurts. Its hard to attach and trust someone so much but be so restricted at the same time. Its like being a rabbit and having someone continuously dangling a carrot in front of you only to take it away as you get closer, its like trying to reach the unreachable- you need to be attached but not too attached, it sucks!