Maybe you just need your feelings validated? Were you able to talk to anyone about the bullying when it was happening? You should have had adults in your life who cared and tried to stop it. Maybe you still have that young person inside you with all those unvalidated feelings and unanswered questions..

I was neglected and abused as a child and have found it healing to talk to a therapist who has been 'on my side', telling me what my parents did was wrong and that my feelings are completely understandable and valid and appropriate for what happened. Then the work is letting go of those feelings.. What happened, happened. It's in the past, I can't change it now. All I can do is live my life today and plan for the future - with a clean or at least cleaner slate once I've released those emotions. To me, it's a journey of learning to love myself despite what other people did.