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Originally Posted by Hopingtrying
 Tisha-your remininscences are all over the place in this post. Makes me think of lots of weird awkward stuff as well. Your mom is determined to still be in charge. I am sure everything she has said and done is about keeping you in line. The ends justify the means even if in the process she has lost you for good (idk but this is the picture I have in my head). I bet she desperately wants you to give in so you will do her bidding. I hope I haven't triggered you. Know that if you keep your distance, you can heal. If you ever need to see her in the future, maybe bring your H as a reinforcement? <<hugs>> |
She wholeheartedly believes I did something unconscionable to her. But I can't get her to explain it to me.
But, when my h and I go over it, all we can surmise is that she's just a b**ch.
Now, he's really glad they are not calling, and says I am acting like a better person toward him without them.
The soul searching about if I am bad or good spins inside me. That's what prompted the mural memory.
Yes, if I called her, she would act like nothing ever happened. It's ridiculous.
If there's a lesson to be learned for anyone else whose survived abuse, it's don't think you can stand up to an abuser and make them change their ways. Maybe you sometimes can, but in my case, I just got booted.
"Tow the line or get out." So I'm out. Pointless and crazy.