I've been having a hard time recently dissociating during therapy. I dissociate even when I'm looking at T when they're talking. Can't seem to hear anything. Last appt., T asked, "Have you noticed that you don't dissociate when YOU talk?"

Duh. No. I didn't know one can dissociate when they talk. If that happens, what does that look like? Does one just stop talking? Or what...? I told T that I think I dissociated when they talk bc I don't want to hear what they were saying or was afraid of what they were going to say.

I'm not DID (or T hasn't mentioned that possibility). So, strictly from a dissociation standpoint, can anyone help me understand dissociation when I talk? What might go through my mind? What signs would show up? I think I have dissociated a time or two when I was talking, but T missed it. I recall talking about something and suddenly I say something that makes me think, "Where did that come from?"

Any help on this topic would be greatly appreciated. T and I are having a rough time talking about anything at all bc I have to keep asking, "Would you repeat that?" or "Excuse me?".