its true, the feeling i have is like... autopilot, im here but im not here
its me but its not me
im doing things but im not, im just observing
so who is controlling the body? who is sending the messages to the physical world to move the body? who is the controller? who is the ... im trying to think of the word to name it... its like im sepperate, but i have a wire connection to the body and can send messages through it so that it operates, like a machine

the machine is blank, there is nothing there besides the receiving messages and acting on the requests

you know what i mean?
there are other connections that fight over sending messages too
but its like a lot, sometimes too much come through and i have anxiety attack...

does that make sense ?