I had a breakdown, too. Really, really sucks. May be getting better, but then the rage comes in -- it's not totally switched off anymore -- and I can't be a very likeable person when I'm grumpy and angry inside. I fake it as best I can, and have the cognitive control to keep the anger not expressing itself, and have learned a lot in the last year by venting here on PC.

I was a software engineer, math and science background, so to me it's incomprehensible, too, that the therapists don't do their own research, especially getting feedback from clients, so they know better where they failed. Instead, they mostly take that kind of feedback as a personal attack. And, of course, when the client is angry, there is an element of personal attack there, too. But if they don't/can't listen, then how can they learn? But maybe they don't see themselves in the business of learning, just "caring". As an engineer, that just don't compute!!

How are you doing now? Are you re-joining the world in some ways? That's mostly what I'm trying to work on now, but it's really, really tough.