So, I'm not really sure what dissociative disorder fully is. I guess I read that it's a lack of connection in your thoughts and personality? And includes having a bad memory? Anyone have more knowledge on what it is?

I know I tend to forget practically everything, and I'll say one thing then do another a lot, and I'll also contradict myself in what I say, and lie a lot to paint a picture of myself that I want the particular listener to see me as at the time. I'm really scared, this sounds like a heavy duty issue. I also read that it has to do with trauma, I experienced a ton of trauma growing up, I know that.