Thanks for the outpouring of support. It means a great deal.
I understand that I didn't put my post into any context so for some of you my extreme reaction probably seemed overblown. And yes, it was, but not without reason. I don't want to spend time here telling my story again but if you're interested it's under The Story Of Cyran0 Part 2.
I also do not want to get into a debate about how a physical attack in school should be categorized. Suffice to say I don't agree that violence is a normal or acceptable part of growing up in any context.
After writing the initial post here, my mental and emotional state got worse. To tell the truth, the whole thing is kind of a blur. I did exactly what needed to be done: took care of my kids, comforted my son, made supper, etc. But it was like watching myself do this on autopilot. My body was so tense that I nearly threw up but at the same time, I was a zombie. I had a phone conversation with my wife and now I don't remember any of the details. So suffice to say, I completely lost my mind. After my wife got home I stood in the shower for something like an hour and this, ultimately, got me grounded.
Today I'm better. I'm sore as hell, I think from the tension, but I'm ok.
In the end I did exactly what the school told me to do and already today I've received a call from the principal. I was not told what the specific actions taken were but I was assured that they have a zero tolerance attitude when it comes to school violence, on or off the grounds.
My son is feeling much better and we did have a series of very good conversations about what happened. I think he's going to be fine.
As for how I reacted yesterday, I guess I was triggered. I really don't know exactly what you'd call that since it was so strange.
Thanks again for all the support.
Cyran0
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My blog: http://cyran0.psychcentral.net/
Dx: Generalized Anxiety Disorder, Major Depressive Disorder, PTSD (childhood physical/sexual abuse), history of drug abuse.
Meds: Zoloft, Lorazapam, Coffee, Cigarettes
"I may climb perhaps to no great heights, but I will climb alone." -Cyrano de Bergerac
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