I honestly sometimes don't know what I'm experiencing. I just call it an episode wether I'm depressed or hypo or manic or mixed because I just don't know. I feel like most the time I'm mixed because when I get depressed I also get very irritable and the racing thoughts and then comes the obsessions and ideas. I sometimes have suicidal ideation but I've not been truly suicidal in a long time. Like I can't really tell sometimes if I'm mixed it just they my cycles at moving so fast back and forth and then there's also my anxiety.