Oh T, that was a weird - but mostly helpful - session last week.

I'm glad I tried that containment exercise even though I felt very silly. So far it has worked well! I did feel though as if you were getting impatient with me, because after a while you were like: Well, you won't know if it works until you try! - and of course you are right. Perhaps I needed that push?

When it was time to make the appointments for the next two weeks I was a bit disappointed. It's spring break here and I'm off work, but you said you'd be working and taking a week off in May. So I thought I'd get my regular spot, but you offered me a different time on a different day. I felt unimportant.

Oh, and then the weirdest thing happened: I was your last appointment of the day and you left the building soon after. I was still sitting in my car across the street, texting my friend when you suddently appeared. I'm not sure if you saw me? Anyway, you were smoking a cigarette. I don't know why this surprised me so much!! I never ever ever thought you'd be a smoker! I guess that says a lot about me and about how I..... idolise you.

T, I'm not sure if I want to talk to you about any of this...