I broke through that darkness for a long enough period of time recently, that even though I am covered in darkness again I can still use the memories of what the light felt like when the darkness left. By doing that I am able to keep the darkness pushed away most of the time. From time to time I cannot though - either due to stress or exhaustion or depression. I am sorry you are still going through that huge valley of darkness I too travelled through in order to get to this place. I spent 28 years in pure misery. Now I revisit that misery from time to time, but I will never forget the torment of being in constant misery. If you need someone to talk to, look me up - I will listen n offer any advice I can.

Take care.

*hugs*