Thank you,

but I don't knnow if I would be sent there because I always look like I am under control, I am stoic, due to abuse, pseudo stoic, I feel inside, I don't look out of control, completly quietlly, I can ttry to kill myself as if I were cooking some meal. Nobody notices it. also I have insight. and even if I know the hospital it is one of the best in the country I don't know if they are skilled on dealing with trauma.

The day hospital I attend it is supposed to be good too, buuut, it has nothing for traumatized peoople.... and I can't pay anything private.

I almost killed myself month ago. I told my psychiatist, he asked me if I wanted to go to the acute ward, I sayid no because it is always scaring and more traumatizing. He let me go, knowing I have a plan and I would try it that night. It didn't work, I just was unconscious.

This made me think why he didnt metion the residential treatment, maybe because even if it offers personalized treatment it doesn't have for trauma.

Or maybe because he thought I would refuse it.

I don't know, I have to ask him.

I am in danger. While I am in a flasback I truuly believe I am in danger and try to kill myself to scape from the threath

Pete walker said it, some cptsd it is mild neurosis while it can also go to psychosis. My flashbacks go beyond anxiety and panic and fear, everything turns real, the fears, the threath, and I react.