My boyfriend will make mistakes, but he will never own up to them. Instead, he manipulates the situation and makes it about how I did something wrong or could have done something better. He will use my traumatic childhood, my PTSD and OCD against me to prove his point that I am just unreasonable. I have been told by other people including my therapist that I am reasonable and a highly-functioning person despite what I have had to overcome. So I feel like he basically mind ****s me.

My mom was emotionally and physically abusive to the men she was with. I am not. I have actually been on the receiving end of the abuse in past relationships, so I don't know why we butt heads so much when I am not aggressive. The issue that I have with him is that he will say that he won't do something, and then he will break his word, and somehow it's my fault: It's my fault because I am insecure. It's my fault because my expectations are too high. It's my fault because I am an **** person. Blah, blah, blah.

I am always the one in the dog house. I always have to be the one to apologize. If we see things differently, I have to be the one to always swallow my pride and agree with him and apologize. That is not the kind of person I am. I feel like he doesn't respect me, because he yells and cusses at me when we have a disagreement. I gained weight recently due to depression and another health issue and have been very discouraged about it. I used to be very petite, and get a lot of compliments about my body and a lot of attention. He'll throw my weight gain in my face and call me "fat-*** *****" or "cow."

When I cry, it just makes him loathe me more. I am very sad because I feel like I wasted my early twenties. When I got into the relationship, my life changed. I had to change the way I dressed because it was "slutty," I had to stop going out and dancing "because you are not single anymore," and I had to cut ties with guy friends that he felt were interested in me.

I honestly feel like I would have been a more successful person (my career goal has been prolonged, I am in debt now, and I have gained weight) had I stayed away from him.